Sharing a lot about my current life in this blog, it suddenly occurred to me that I had not fully revealed stories of my childhood yet. You might have heard some of my stories when I talked about them on live broadcasts, and once I was amused by some feedback of my audience. Most of the audience couldn’t believe what I have been through. They even started naming me as ‘the most encouraging blogger.’
Dreaming about being a musician, I spent most of my childhood practicing and preparing for my music career. I mastered violin and piano, and practiced for 3-4 hours everyday. At the age of 10, the thought that maybe I was not cut out for a musician came to me, since I had been doing much better in music theory rather than playing instruments. By that time, I made up my mind to focus on my studies instead. Competes in the studies have always been intense in Taiwan, as most parents put lots of emphasis on their kids academy. Therefore, I wasn’t sure if I had made the right decision, and I had no choice but to spare no effort.
In high school, I woke up early every day at 5:30 am, to study, made detailed and organized study plans, completed every tasks available. There was barely entertainment or recreational activities in life, which was even harder for a teenage girl. Turning down social activities and maximizing study time was what I believed was the right thing to do. With my tons of hard work, I ranked first on the very first examination I took. And even more, I had been getting almost every first from any exam. Being a number one student gave me confidence around people. I often heard people saying that I was born gifted and nailed exams easily. However, in fact I was pretty stressed out. The thought of not ranking first bothered me a lot, for I worried if not ranking first would let my teachers or parents down. I couldn’t tolerate myself when being the second by that time.
Years after, it seems to be extremely ridiculous and unnecessary to be haunted by the thought of ‘ranking second on exams’. Those titles, no matter being compromised as a child prodigy or getting numerous first, mean nothing at all. When getting into college, how your grades were no longer matter. Your attitude, your characters are what really matter in your everyday life. My titles and fame in high school are like bubbles, they burst with no trace. However, I still got some valuable expereinces from my high school pursuit on studies. Understanding myself and having no fear facing difficulties is what I learned. I had no confidence on competing in the road of studies by the time I decided no to pursue a career of musician. Yet it surprised me when I did so well on my first exam, which truly encouraged me as my hardwork and disciplined life had paid off. I felt strength with knowing how to set goals and do things step by step to reach something big. It was an experience that gave me so much power.
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